Life is a myriad of dream, secrets, desires, ambitions, passions interlinked so intricately that makes it , well, hmmm, that makes it, ahhh, (that makes it?), LIFE.
Futility so regularly knocks (bangs is more appropriate) at the doors of life, that whether you open the bloody doors or not, you realize you are doomed anyways. “**** life” is one of the statement that has started playing on my lips regularly these days. And then these small, tiny weenie passions, dreams, secrets remind me of the fact that the “powerful play” is still damn going on and that I better stop bullshitting , philosophizing about it and start “contributing” instead.
To those of you who aren’t familiar with Mr. Walt Whitman’s poetry, here’s one of his fabulous poems,
O me! O life!... of the questions of these recurring;Of the endless trains of the faithless--of cities fill'd with the foolish;Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)Of eyes that vainly crave the light--of the objects mean--of the struggle ever renew'd;Of the poor results of all--of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me;Of the empty and useless years of the rest--with the rest me intertwined;The question, O me! so sad, recurring--What good amid these, O me, O life?Answer.That you are here--that life exists, and identity;
That the powerful play goes on, and you will contribute a verse.Look at this guy, I mean imagine saying something like this, its like saying “**** you” in my face when I say “**** life”. I mean, I love this guy for making it so easy for you to believe you that are grossly mistaken in assessing the futility of your own existence. Hmmm, hats off to him, nothing to match the power and potent of those words. It sometimes cures headache, cold and fever too.
But then the question “what is my verse gonna be” chews my head off. It’s a BIG question and the answer changes, undergoes metamorphosis, and transmogrifies everyday. But, consider this, isn’t my existence itself contributing to the play? My verse is my existence. The entropy and confusion that I set forth due to my being here on earth itself ought to be a big contributor to the “powerful play”. Maybe. Maybe Not.
My existentialist friends wouldn’t agree better. “Existence precedes Essence”. So the fact that I am already there before I even have a chance to find out why I am there leads me to believe that ,one, I am there and therefore already contributing to life and two, I do have the option of switching the role that I play, or at least, change my makeup.
So, do I have a proposition arrived at by logical reasoning that must follow from the major and minor premises of a syllogism? (I mean a Conclusion). Hmmm, I do not. My own prose obnubilates my intentions of writing it.